100 Reset

Things were going so well. We had big plans for spring break. Then overnight plans changed. At 4 a.m. I woke up with stomach pains and by 6 a.m. I was at the beginning of a 24-hour, gut-wrenching stomach flu. Me. The Mom. The caretaker. The knower of what-to-do, where-to-go, and what-to-take. I laid in bed, every fiber of my being hurt. I secluded myself not wanting anyone else to get sick. Baby M stood at my door and just looked in. She didn't say anything. I think she just wanted to make sure I was still there. Then she cried and Hubby came to take her to play with her sisters.

Although I was only in bed for 24 hours and started to recover by the following morning, this day gave me great appreciation, empathy and compassion for everyone out there existing with something more serious. I thought of my sister's battle with cancer a couple of years ago and wondered, "How did she do it?" I appreciated her strength even more. I thanked God for this day just as it was and just as it was not. Knowing that God is Good, I recognized the opportunity in this brief experience of suffering. I saw it as a chance to reset; to reset my life, my priorities and my choices for my body. I decided to take this as a cleanse (which it definitely was) and make wiser food selections. I quit caffeine...no more coffee or soda for now. And released sugar too. I decided to make more thoughtful and mindful choices in other areas of my life. Obviously, I didn't pick up my camera or check email or facebook for more than 24 hours. It made me realize that there were things I was doing that maybe I could do without. So, now I'm reassessing just what photos I take and why. I'm thinking about what I do on the computer and when. As a result, there may be fewer photos (or maybe not) and I may not get them posted very quickly (or maybe I will). I just don't know. What I do know is that I'm beyond grateful for this clean start and fresh outlook and I'm curious to see just what happens next.